Is your spouse a “Weak Link” in Your Spiritual Chain-of-Command 

Preface

Dear God: The Holy Trinity, thank you for the exchange at the cross. I proclaim that my slavery to sin is terminated, because my old man was put to death in Christ that the new man might come to life in me. Amen.

For the Record

I share this story with a heavy heart because my husband has asked me for a divorce.

As a warrior for the Kingdom of God, I sometimes endure and embrace radical: obedience, humility, generosity and forgiveness.

Addictions of any kind is a sickness, more importantly it is a choice as well. One that can make you a slave, in bondage and controlled by Satan, as your slave master.

Moving On

On this day, August 18, 2021, Michael asked me for a divorce. I cannot say that I was shocked nor that I expected it, but I have a sense of peace and calmness, in me, through me and around me; and, I am looking forward to the next phase of my Spiritual journey with God as His Dunamis Warrior Princess.

I am so thankful for my encounter with Michael because God truly used him to bring me into a relationship with God: The Holy Trinity.

One might ask why God would allow this marriage to be dissolved if He had a hand in bringing us together. Well, this leads us to the mysteries of God. And one thing for certain is that God does not want to see His vessels, abused or misused. He is our protector, yet he works in mysterious ways, for His Glory. Hallelujah!

God will test our love for Him, He wants assurance that our love is genuine, unconditional as His love for us is. As for me, I take into consideration the totality of what it means to be in a relationship with God. In this temporal world God has prepared us and forewarned us that there would be trials and tribulations and how we overcome these will either break us or make us.

The book of JOB is my go-to when I am going through trials and tribulations. And one of my mom’s favorite sayings was that God will not put no more on us than He [God] knows we can bear. Hallelujah!

If we overcome, then God takes us through yet another phase of testing, this is His means of strengthening us, empowering us to overthrow the enemy and his fiery darts in this temporal world; thus, proving ourselves worthy of His Love and our inheritance with Christ.

We must earn our inheritance, we do not just arbitrarily get to enter God’s Kingdom without being put through the fire, tested. When our books are thrown onto the altar of fire, what is left will determine our worth, what crown will we receive, whether we will be able to enter the Kingdom of God, or just see in the Kingdom of God or go straight into the pit of hell with Satan and his fallen angels and unbelievers.

What will my Divorce Decree read as Reasoning for a Divorce?

Indifferences in Sexual Appetite, this is Michael’s bottom line reasoning.

He refers to it as the elephant in the room, which has been there for years. On my account it was there even before he asked for my hand in marriage, in fact, he used the fact that we were unmarried, yet living together in sin and that he wanted to wait until we were married to engage in sexual intimacy. So, we were married and the elephant in the room was still present.

As for me, I did not take notice of the elephant, I had a greater purpose and took pleasure in being God’s Travailing and Intercessory Prayer Warrior. Honoring His ordained title as His Dunamis Warrior Princess. Hallelujah!

By nature, I am a compassionate, hopeless romantic. I have tolerated rejection of intimacy more than once with Michael, and so, I moved on.

My Testimony

More importantly, I found Jesus Christ, or perhaps He found me, then Jesus supernaturally baptized me in the Holy Spirit and my website is evident of how my relationship with God: The Holy Trinity evolved into something greater than I could ever have imagined. The Holy Trinity will forever be my first Love, unequivocally, I have been transformed, renewed, and no longer conformed to the things of this world. I am answering my calling, fulfilling God’s purpose for me in this temporal world. Yes, sometimes the cross gets heavy, but I am not alone, the Holy Trinity is here with me, manifested within me, God’s Kingdom presides over me, literally.

1 Corinthians 2:9
New King James Version

⁹ But as it is written:
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”

 Up Close and Personal

It’s alarming to know that a person can subject and sacrifice his or her relationship with God to appease a sexual appetite that draws him or her to such things as: internet porn, an addiction that make them slaves to Satan, thus compromises his or her relationship with God.

Before my walk with God, and development of an intimate relationship with God, I too, dabbled in watching porn, but never consumed by it. But there is no way I will sacrifice my calling, my relationship with God: The Holy Trinity, it just is not going to happen.

Sexual immorality goes against God’s precepts, we cannot be lovers of the world and love God, too, for it is written.

James 4:1-6
New King James Version
Pride Promotes Strife

4 Where do ^[a]wars and fights come from among you? Do they not come from your desires for pleasure that war in your members? ² You lust and do not have. You murder and covet and cannot obtain. You fight and ^[b]war. ^[c]Yet you do not have because you do not ask. ³ You ask and do not receive, because you ask amiss, that you may spend it on your pleasures. ^4 [d]Adulterers and adulteresses! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Whoever therefore wants to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God. ⁵ Or do you think that the Scripture says in vain, “The Spirit who dwells in us yearns jealously”?

⁶ But He gives more grace. Therefore, He says:
“God resists the proud,
But gives grace to the humble.”

Divine Revelation

One day Michael asked me in no uncertain terms if I recognized that he was included in my chain-of-command to God. In short, he was attempting to exercise his authority.  This prompted me to have a sit down with The Holy Trinity on the premise, I was bothered by the fact that Michael’s demeanor and actions got to a point where he was no longer taking me on that vertical plane, strengthening our relationship with God. Michael’s demeanor was extending on the horizontal plane: becoming more worldly, his level of spiritual maturity was declining, dissipating, seeping into the kingdom of darkness, I saw him as a weak-link in my spiritual chain-of-command. The Holy Spirit took me to the following scripture.
 

1 Peter 3:1-6
New King James Version

Submission to Husbands

3 Wives, likewise, be submissive to your own husbands, that even if some do not obey the word, they, without a word, may be won by the conduct of their wives, ² when they observe your chaste conduct accompanied by fear. ³ Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— ⁴ rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the ^[a]incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. ⁵ For in this manner, in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves, being submissive to their own husbands, ⁶ as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord, whose daughters you are if you do good and are not afraid with any terror.

Putting on your God Armor

Ephesians 6:11 (NKJV)

¹¹ Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the ^[a]wiles of the devil.

A Recent Visit from Darla (Michael’s infidelity partner)

Recently, within the last couple of weeks from the date of this Blog, Darla shows up at our doorstep with her son Ryan. Michael was entertaining a couple of friends in the living room and when he answered the door, saw that it was her, he came and announced to me that she was at the door and wanted to know if I wanted him to handle the matter or if I wanted to handle the matter.

So, I step up to the plate engaging in my wifely duties, as help meet. (LOL) Come on, give me a chuckle here.

On a serious note, I was Christ like, cordial and too, she had her son Ryan with her, early teens. Again, I was in that calm, peaceful state, the Holy Spirit was ever presence, I checked in with Him as usual.

Her reasoning for coming by was to thank Michael and I, for what, I don’t know. She never got there, she was just rambling, she made mention that she had broken up with her boyfriend because he cheated on her with another woman. LIKE, HELLO, SERIOUSLY!!! The point is that it appears that she was condemning him.

Reaping what we Sow

First, I am not a stranger to infidelity, in fact, I am guilty, because, with my first husband, I committed adultery, my marriage to him was in the 1980’s, however, he was a womanizer, mentally abusive and became physically abusive.

Second, The father of my son is the result of my relationship with a married man, a man that I met when I was 18 years old, and the relationship dissolved because he became physically abusive. After leaving my first husband, and relocating to Phoenix, AZ, I reconnected, after ten years, with the man who is the father of my son. My love for him was deep, on the level of truly being in love, falling in love, he was that person. By this time, he knew that I would not tolerate any form of abuse. This was in the 1980’s and 1990’s.

In essence, what goes around, comes around, we reap what we sow. We must be held accountable for our actions. The beauty of God’s righteousness is that God is a “Just” God, the wages of our sins is death. That goes deeper, but a precept of God that is worth chewing on.

As Christians, we are The Salt of the Earth

In my walk and talks with God: The Holy Trinity; I have gained wisdom, knowledge, and understanding on how God will take our short comings, sins and iniquities to help others. As a living sacrifice, I have learned to be open and honest and not ashamed of my past or my sins. Secrets are an act of bondage, they become stumbling blocks, to connect with God we need to build steppingstones which takes us to that vertical plane. And, in our honesty and truth we overcome Satan and his fallen angels, (evil spirits) he has no power over us. Remember, do not feed that bully, starve him too death and you do that by exposing whatever stronghold he may be holding over you. Be doers of God’s Word, not just sayers. And be not double-minded, saying one thing and your actions depicts something else.

The Weak-Link in my Spiritual Chain-of-Command

My husband has been voicing his unhappiness within our marriage for some time now, especially after his confession of his adulterous affair with Darla. His confession was the day before our one-year anniversary.

This month, August 22^nd, will mark our 5^th year anniversary as husband and wife; however, we have been in the relationship for over eleven years.

Michael has been sporadically expressing his bouts of unhappiness within our marriage by means of hinting, never anything definitive though. His level of communication was always in circles, never pinpointing what he was unhappy about. I always felt that he was reaching, looking for a reason to be dissatisfied with our marriage. I began to see this as a means for him to justify his desires to explore those lust demons that were luring him in.

Rhema (Spoken Word of God)

Through audible download in the summer of 2016, God expressed to me that He is disappointed in the men of this nation… Yes, the men of the United States of America.

The disappointment: Sexual Immorality, Adultery, Child Abandonment

Thinking back, I can see how these acts leads to: A Weak Link in the Spiritual Chain of Command.

Recognizing the signs of a weak-link in your spiritual chain-of-command …

… drug addiction, alcohol addiction, physical abuse, mental abuse, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, etc.

Up Close and Personal

In the past week and a half, Michael started to leave the home unannounced and was gone until sundown pretty much. This started after Darla’s recent visit. Now the enemy is so cunning, but I did not question his whereabouts; however, the distrust level increased and I felt a sense of disrespect which I view as a form of abuse. He was taking matters to another level.

So, I checked in with The Holy Trinity: My vertical Chain-of-Command. I said God there are certain things I will and can tolerate, but I will not tolerate any form of abuse and disrespect. I need You, I need some guidance.

In my talks with the Holy Spirit, throughout the relationship, I would say to the Holy Spirit: I am not going to break up with You. We are not getting a divorce. I am in this relationship with God: The Holy Trinity for the duration, be it the rapture are my death here on earth.

Additionally, Michael’s mother and sister reside with us, we are their care takers. Michael has Power of Attorney for his mother’s welfare, and I have Power of Attorney for his sister’s welfare, she is on disability stemming from several health issues. This goes deeper, but you get my point. Again, I am reminded of another means of Michael’s selfishness. And, yet he wants to call me out for not recognizing him as a link in God’s chain of command.

Rejecting my Prayer Request

Recently, Michael, I asked you to join me in a prayer for healing, you rejected my request and asked if I believe that God hears all prayers. God says to pray without ceasing. That tells me that He hears all prayers. You asked me if I believe that God answers all prayers, I believe that God’s Just in His decision to answer or not answer prayers.

In this same conversation, you said The Holy Spirit asked you how often you had prayed for me. You said that you could only think of three times, now that cut rather deep, but I was more sadden for you than the fact that you had only prayed for me three times.

I said to you that I pray for you every day, and I will remind you that I will forever pray for you, and I seek other prayer warriors to pray for you as well, that is the kind of God-Fearing woman that I am.

Being in love vs. just loving you…

In the beginning of our relationship, you were served with a warrant for selling drugs, you had been caught on tape in a grocery store parking lot. The detective wanted you to reveal your sources, yada, yada, yada.

I could have ran, terminated the relationship, but I didn’t.

Then you were placed on probation and during one of your visits you came up positive on a drug test, you were incarcerated. At that time our contracting business was taking off, I had got approval for government contract jobs, at this time we were in the midst of a big job at a Storage Place, we had employees to pay.

I could have ran then, terminated the relationship, we were not married, simply cohabitating.

You were in jail for about a week, I was in the beginning stages of my relationship with God. I wrote a letter to Judge Canaday, I still have it, I was pleading on your behalf for mercy, through the grace of God, Judge Canaday ordered your release the very next day. Your court appointed attorney at the time did not agree with my decision to approach Judge Canaday directly, as best I recall, but I stood my ground, adamant, determined and he got that letter to Judge Canaday for me. Here is evidence on how God will move mountains for those who love Him.

You were behind on your child support for both of your kids by different mothers, I took measures to help you catch up, still to this day, I keep you in check on your son’s child support.

On occasions you were unemployed, I kept things afloat.

In essence, these are the things one goes through when they are in love, unconditional love. I never hounded you, I was your help meet. I kept God first, all these things I did from the heart.

When I pray, I include your kids, whom I have never met. As a prayer warrior I pray about everything.

Moving On

The Holy Spirit prompted me to send this text message to Michael, it read as follows:

Michael, I don't know what demonic spirits are chasing you, but it is evident that you are courting them. I find your actions recently as a form of abuse and disrespectful.

For the record, I do not need a marriage counselor of the secular world, in fact, I have three that will take me to eternal life: God; The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. And I choose to follow them and put them first and foremost. As for your role in this chain-of-command, you are a weak link, you're compromised because you are failing to keep me on the vertical plane.  You are seeking to distract me from my calling and purpose to do God's will. I will not be compromised, forsaking my Lord Jesus Christ, I want to be His witness in Judea and Samaria.

I accept, unequivocally, that my life is not my own. I was purchased by the blood of Jesus Christ. I have picked up my cross and will continue to follow Him. He deserves this and nothing less, yet so much more.

God says that we cannot love the world and Him too. I understand why, too many distractions to lead us astray.

As for the list you were to write for me last evening, I've concluded that you don't need a sit down with me, you need a sit down with God the Holy Trinity. I urge you to seek the methods of quenching the Holy Spirit. One of your demons is stubbornness, laced with pride.

I no longer trust in you.  I love you and will be forever grateful that God used you to inspire and light that fire for me to have that desire to know the Holy Spirit. You've taught me a lot about God in the beginning of our relationship. I never knew that we were spirit beings, clothed in flesh. I thank God that He used you to bring me into a relationship with him. Sadly, you are losing your way to that vertical plane; however, I pray that God will now use me to get you back on the path of righteousness, God's righteousness. In Jesus name.

May the peace and blessings of God be with you. Much Love, your wife. 

Food For Thought

Recall the parable of the cursed fig tree that Jesus cursed: It depicted green leaves from a distance, as if fruitful, yet at close sight it bears no figs.

Likewise, as believers in Christ, one’s demeanor is to be Christ Like, bearing fruit such as the nine Fruits of the Spirit: winning souls for God’s Kingdom. … otherwise, you are cursed.

If you are leading anyone into sin in lieu of righteousness, God’s Righteousness, then you are lukewarm, you are compromising them as Satan did with Adam and Eve. You want what you deem the best of both worlds. You bathe in the Kingdom of Darkness, from the temptations of Satan and his fallen angels: demonic spirits.

From those temptation’s, you wreak of lust, sexual immorality, stubbornness, pride, a suspicious mind, self-righteousness; to name a few of the many acts of discords that these evil spirits can and will take you through because, you are bathing in them, courting them and then they become manifested within you.   Then in the presence of others, you present yourself as that angel of light, in disguise, Satan is your slave master.
 

Dominion

As believer’s in Christ, we have dominion over Satan; however, when we go against God’s precepts, Satan, the accuser, who runs to and fro, the one whose agenda is to rob, kill and destroy can exercise his authority over you. Because of your action: to sin, God’s hands are removed. The laws of heaven exist like the laws of the earth, only the laws of heaven are divine, just, righteous. As intercessors we can go before God on your behalf, as Jesus Christ, our High Priest does for all of us, but if your offense angers the heart of God, He may choose not to grant mercy. God does not change His precepts to meet our needs especially if they do not align with His precepts. Obedience is a key factor.

I strongly urge you to think about your actions, that moment of pleasure could rob you of eternal life.

Revelation 3:15-16

New King James Version

¹⁵ “I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. ¹⁶ So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither ^[a]cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth.

Mark 8:34-38

New King James Version
Take Up the Cross and Follow Him

³⁴ When He had called the people to Himself, with His disciples also, He said to them, “Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. ³⁵ For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it. ³⁶ For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? ³⁷ Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? ³⁸ For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him the Son of Man also will be ashamed when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels.”

Divine Revelation
Colossians 2:8-10
New King James Version

⁸ Beware lest anyone ^[a]cheat you through philosophy and empty deceit, according to the tradition of men, according to the basic principles of the world, and not according to Christ. ⁹ For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead ^[b]bodily; ¹⁰ and you are complete in Him, who is the head of all ^[c]principality and power.

Colossians 2:8-10
Amplified Bible

⁸ See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deception [pseudo-intellectual babble], according to the tradition [and musings] of mere men, following the ^[a]elementary principles of this world, rather than following [the truth—the teachings of] Christ. ⁹ For in Him all the fullness of Deity (the Godhead) dwells in bodily form [completely expressing the divine essence of God]. ¹⁰ And in Him you have been made complete [achieving spiritual stature through Christ], and He is the head over all rule and authority [of every angelic and earthly power]

Divine Revelation…

You are being sifted as wheat, Michael, my love

 Luke 22:31-32

New King James Version
Jesus Predicts Peter’s Denial

^31 [a]And the Lord said, “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat. ³² But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.”

Ephesians 6:11-16
New King James Version

¹¹ Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the ^[a]wiles of the devil. ¹² For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of ^[b]the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. ¹³ Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
¹⁴ Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, ¹⁵ and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; ¹⁶ above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one.

My Prayer

Dear God, I am thankful that You keep me in that perfect peace, despite the trials and tribulations that I am going through with my marriage to Michael. I pray for other husbands and wives (marriages of a man and a woman) that they too can be in that perfect peace while You are working on the best plans for them to better serve You: The Holy Trinity. I am thankful for your grace and mercies made new each day, I am thankful for your healing powers, I am thankful for my health and my sanity and the provisions that you make each day. I will not fret. I trust in You with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. You are my rock and my shield. In Jesus Christ name. Amen!

Dear Michael

I am sorry that I could not measure up and meet the demands of your sexual appetite. One of my competitors comes equipped with a mouse, a key-board, a monitor and she invites you in to surf her dark demented web.

Our Creator, did not wire me up that way.

My other competitors, may not realize it, but you are compromising their souls and prostituting them for your slave master, Satan.

I pray that one day you will read this and realize just how immature and selfish you are. Not that you commit this sin against me, but that you could not refrain from Spiritual Adultery against our Lord Jesus Christ. Please forgive Him Lord for he knows not what he is doing. I pray that one day he will be healed and set free from these demons.

The fact is that he has confided in me on numerous occasions that he has been delivered from this addiction, but it is clearly evident that these demons are manifested in him.

Michael, you said that as a young child, God spoke to you and said to flee from sin, that you heard those words clearly. You said that during a church gathering in Virginia, when you resided there that you experienced the glory and presence of God: The Holy Spirit, you attended a Christian school as your up bringing, your father was an ordained minister, a praying man with compassion for the Holy Spirit, you know scripture and have the gift to minister to others, yet you still choose to glorify Satan instead of God: our Heavenly Father, and our Savior Lord Jesus Christ, and The Holy Spirit. How can you forsake Him. I am sadden for you Michael, but even more sad for Jesus Christ, you are choosing to reject him over a hand job that will only give you a few seconds of pleasure, that is stupidity that could rob you from eternal life.
The irony is that, with my first marriage, I put him before God, seeking God and praying that my abusive husband would love me as much as I loved him.

This time I got it right, God first and I am praying for your soul to be healed.

Deliverance can only come if you are truly ready, scripture says that the enemy returns even when the house is cleaned, but that he can return seven-fold if you stray again. (paraphrasing).

You think that since you requested a divorce that this is a green light for you to go and stray, as you are doing now because you are absent for hours on end, even late into the night. I thank God that I am under His umbrella of protection, and I have no intentions of leaving Him.

Matthew 12:43-45
New King James Version

An Unclean Spirit Returns

⁴³ “When an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. ⁴⁴ Then he says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when he comes, he finds it empty, swept, and put in order. ⁴⁵ Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first. So shall it also be with this wicked generation.”

Please, Lord, will you help him. I never met his earthly father, but I hear that he was a man after Your own heart and had a compassion for the Holy Spirit. Let us join forces and pray for Michael Paul’s soul. In Jesus Christ name. Amen.

As for me, I forgive you Michael, I will forever love you and be your friend. You know that I am a straight shooter, I do not hold back. Jesus says to let our yes be yes and our no be no. I share this story in hope of winning souls for God’s Kingdom. God, I now turn this battle over to you, I am on standby to travail if you need me. I love you God: The Holy Trinity, to the moon and back.

My Special Request

God, If it is okay with you, I would like to make reservation for a room in the many mansions, Jesus Christ has told us about, I’m in need of a place to stay. (Smile) In Jesus Christ name.

Signed
God’s Dunamis Warrior Princess (title: ordained by God)
Travailing and Intercessory Prayer Warrior
 

Romans 8:30-31
New King James Version

³⁰ Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
God’s Everlasting Love
³¹ What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?